Guess What....

Well first let me say that there is something about a military wife that understands everything you are going thru when your husband is deployed. The last time Shayne left, I had great friends next door and we got together every week and they along with my Cafemom friends got me thru that deployment.

Well this time I don't have hardly any friends here yet, but I did meet a great military wife whose husband is also an officer in the Navy and get this, he is deploying a few weeks before Shayne. So together we are going to get each other thru these next long months.

I know I can do this, I mean I already have, but I am still scared. I am going into this in a better, more positive frame of mind than I did the first time. I want to accomplish something this time, I want to see changes in me that I never take the time to do. Now I'll have time to focus on me...and that's what I am going to do.

I have a couple other blogs that I blog on and will continue too throughout this adventure, so check in often and see if I am doing it this time.

But with another military wife beside me I think I'm ready.

Here we go again....

Well the news came down last night that Shayne is going to deploy again. I know that this should be easier to deal with this time. But its not. I am in a new town, new state, new house, and not a ton of friends here, and pretty soon all of them in school and activities.

Since Shayne got home a lot has changed in our lives. We own our first home, and we love it...but there is so much still to do. The fence that needed replaced this spring is gonna have to be done ASAP since he's leaving in month...but its ok, we can do it. Our youngest son was dx with Asperger syndrome, and its forced us to all function together in different ways.

Our lives seem so right at the moment, and as soon as I walked in last night and he was home already and I did what all wives do "why are you home early" and he said "do you wanna drink" I just knew my heart fell and I said "damn it are you getting deployed again?" and the answer was yes.

I, well we can do this I know we have done it already. But this time its 3 months longer, he'll miss both the boys playing football, and wrestling...both are things that they all do together. I can look at this positively and say...well at least he'll be home our son's senior year...but today that doesn't make it feel any better.

So "here we go again....." is my life today. Welcome back to this blog gang...it'll be busy.