Saturday, March 28, 2009

Marry me again.....



OMG thats what I logged on to see when I got on Facebook the other day. My dear husband posted this as his status and sent this picture:

On the Island there are Chaplains? Don't mind Desert Uniform? The most beautiful place I have seen. Heaven talks to you there. Marry me again, there?

Now I am always on him to be ROMANTIC to me on there so my friends know how and why I love you as much as I do. Now I am eating my words can you think of anything more romantic than that? He is my hero and the love of my life. I will miss him so much when he leaves, but I am gonna work like hell to be an even better person when he comes back to us.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Time Together



Well this deployment Shayne took 30 days off before he leaves. Now this is a blessing and a curse. I know, I know sounds just plain bitchy, but I can tell you that as much as I cry when he's gone, I wanna cry he's up my butt and messing up my schedules being home in the bed, or the recliner, or well just under foot.

I know that in a few weeks, I'll be a blubbering idiot walking around lost without him, but today, I'm ok with a break. I find myself frustrated once again with the "hurry up and wait" thing that goes on with the military, and you'd think I'd be getting used to it, but right now I just want this damn thing to start and get done.

We are hoping to see each other this summer for a few days, but I have learned to NOT count on anything. I have several missions this time, and I am hoping to see some POSITIVE changes. My fear is that this time we live in our own house, and any major problems we might have (God Forbid) will all the sudden have to be my problem...not just a realtor's. Oh well I have since figured out that if it's not one thing it's another, so guess its life.

I have found so much support with old friends I have found on Facebook. Pretty cool, I love my family, and they are an amazing support, but some days its tough to keep saying the same thing over and over, and I'm sure they get sick of hearing it. I mean 9 months is a long time to listen to someone bitching, whining, crying and complaining ya know. Now I have an way to talk to other people who know and love me, and help keep my family a bit saner LOL.

So this is the downhill trek to his departure, and we are surviving. I will check in more often after he's gone...but you all know that already LOL.

Monday, March 02, 2009

Together


This time before Shayne deploys we are gonna get to spend some time together w/o him having to go to work. I am excited, and nervous at the same time. I find us TALKING more...OMG that would be a crime LOL...NOT but we have time to feel each other out, and sometimes that makes things a bit scary. We all know what is coming this time, although I am sure with NEW twists.

So last night we sat up talking, having a couple bottles of wine, and well you know *wink wink* till 4 am. I don't know the last time we stayed up together till 4 am...holy cow I did pay for it today. I just felt so close to him when we were dancing in the middle of our living room at 11pm...no kids, no TV, just us and or favorite songs. I so love my husband, and I know we will come out the other side of this deployment "different...stronger" hopefully "better" people. Separations for any reason are hard, but having done it once I think I am more prepared this time.

I am going to do this one POSITIVE, and you all are gonna be along for the ride. Your job when you read this is to REMIND me there will be an END in time and that I CAN do this. Thank you all my friends for being my friends