Its like a TORNADO....

.....emotions, mess, tears, yelling, fear, laughing, picture taking, emailing, call forwarding, breakage, and constant deep breathing. That's some of the words I can use to describe this deployment. There is something CONSTANTLY going on here. Some days good, some days bad, and some days, well I count down the seconds till bedtime.

If I could change one thing about this deployment, it wouldn't be that he be home, becasue this is his job, although I LONG for him to be home with me...its still his job to be gone and do what he is doing. No, the one thing I would change is the tightness in my chest. Many MOMENTS (not days or hours, its seconds) the stress seems overwhelming. But if I can THINK it thru I can usually find the answer.

I am a much stronger person than I was before the military life our family lives, and if nothing else, for me personally this was a much needed trait I THOUGHT I had, but separation that you have NO CONTROL over kinda FORCES us to take stock in our lives.

My husband is truly one of the 5 reasons I get up every single day and go on, thru the crap life deals us. I wish that things wouldn't break as soon as they get out of the country, and leve the mess for us to pick up, but its the job of a military wife. Last time it was that beautiful $800 flat screen we had bought like 3 months earlier....this time (knock on wood) its not my big HD Plasma flat screen that ranks right below the mustang (Freida) for Shayne...nope its my darn air conditioning. But after days of realizing that I am NOT gonna live in a sauna in my own darn house, I figured a way around waiting till payday LOL, I'm gonna call and use his CC that he has. I'm thinking this is a NECESSITY in today's society for several reasons:

1. I'm a big girl, and sweating SUCKS
2. I'm old, and sweating SUCKS
3. I'm tired from the heat, and sweating SUCKS
and finally,
4. WTH am I gonna do when HIS dog dies of heat stroke in my damn living room...so guess that means fixing it is a NECESSITY LOL.

So I hate calling repair men, I always feel like I HAVE to do what they say, but I'll listen and if it sounds WRONG, I'll call someone else...thank God for some rain this week.

Yep my life is a tornado right now, but wanna know the funny part, even when my husband is home our life is chaotic, and funny, and usually requires LOTS of deep breathing LOL. Guess its not much different except for my "can't breath tight chest." But like everyone else who has problems, I'll deal, and move FORWARD towards that LIGHT at the END of the TUNNEL. I can see the light, I just want it to stay put for a few weeks so I can get to it LOL. Have a great week everyone.