Absence makes the heart grow fonder. Well that’s an old adage I’m not sure I believe. I mean doesn’t that contradict the one that says “out of site out of mind.” So which one is right? I mean today in the distant recesses of my mind I couldn’t shake the “I’m alone and I miss him horribly, and life will never be the same” feeling…yeah it’s a mouthful but boy was I feeling STRESSED.

So I decided that we needed a NORMAL family outing….OMG 4 kids after school and no nap for the little ones and the LOOP (thanks for the details sis)….then dinner at the Chinese Hog trough (my kids love a good buffet) and then hair cuts, eyebrow waxing, DQ for Blizzards’ (where they put it all, I will NEVER know LOL) and then home for the HOMEWORK marathon. Yep that’s about it….NORMAL with a family of 4 kids…oh yeah forgot to tell you about the mashed in fortune cookies in my 5 month old MINI-VAN…LOL.

Anyway here I sit, trying hard NOT to think or feel bad, but it’s not working. I so can’t call another person whining tonight they will certainly think I lost my flippen mind or that my HAPPY PILLS aren’t working but they are…LOL can you imagine me if they weren’t LOL. So I want to know how this deployment is gonna make me STRONGER, more SECURE in my marriage, more WHATEVER. I mean hell I was secure in my marriage BEFORE this, now I am scared and lonely. Stronger, whatever, I have 4 kids, a husband, a dog and a cat, and possibly a bird soon…yeah stronger that’s what I need to be NOT…LOL. So what is it this is doing for me except filling my mind with doubts and fears? NOTHING…that’s what its doing…all I can do is sit and WATCH the CLOCK (thanks hubby). Oh well such is life, I do however get to see him in exactly 51 days. If anyone knows which one of these old adages are true can ya drop me a line LOL I would like some PROOF that one of them work…hell at this point I don’t even care which one LOL. Happy Thursday everyone.